But seriously is there even a single actor in the MCU who doesn’t have the most
puppy dog eyes in the damn universe?
(well, except Clint)
Awww I dunno. I present to you this:
“He’s my friend,” the Winter Soldier muttered petulantly, tightening his hold on Steve. “My friend.”
Sam guffawed. He couldn’t help it. This was his life now, apparently. His actual life. “Yeah, man, you think? We’ve only been searching for you over half of creation. I kind of got that part.”
Bucky remembers. At least he remembers the part where it’s his job to look after Steve.
(Herein there be spoilers for Captain America: The Winter Soldier.)
Flying, or being able to turn invisible, would both be really awesome super powers. But you know what would be an even better super power? The ability to go back over social situations where you said REALLY AWKWARD THINGS, and CHANGE what you said into something brilliant and witty (you know, all those things you think to say AFTER the party is over).
I’d be Retroactive Social Editor Girl. And shy people with social anxiety could come to me to edit their social fumbles, too, and I would feel awesome about that. \o/
The fact that this man on the bridge calls him ‘bucky’ when everyone else calls him ‘the asset’really, really, fucking really screws with him. you can almost see the schematics of the programming whirring behind his eyes and that SPARK there, like he didn’t have a name before this stranger gave him one? carries through to the next scene, which i am going to admit is my absolute favourite; oh my GOD. OH MY GOD he played it like a child who wants something like a child who really just WANTS THIS ONE TOY FOR CHRISTMAS like he’s trying to make his inner landscape come to life just so he knows he’s not crazy. ‘i knew him,’ he says, and i bit teethmarks into my hand. it’s the single strain in his mind; the only thing strong enough to counter the kill order, and he keeps repeating it like a drowning man with a lifeline, the only thing in this haze. ‘but i knew him.’ he says; and he’s trying to CONVINCE pierce as much as trying to state it - if it only exists inside his head (the head that’s been wiped so many times by so many people, the mind that’s been scrubbed clean and then frozen and scrubbed clean and then frozen - ) then does it really exist? ‘but i knew him.’ he’s trying to convince himself as much as anyone, he only wants to know that he hadn’t imagined it. he nods a little, to make his point. this usually works. this is his mission report. they always believe his mission report. it’s so obvious he doesn’t even think of himself as a person; he’s an asset, and he’s a tool (he would be MORE THAN CAPABLE of taking out the entire room, but he doesn’t; why? why?) and he’s never registered the need or even desire to be anything else until this day, and all he wants is to remember, because it threw him and it unsettled him and it’s for the mission and won’t you please let me remember -
Just saw the movie for the 2nd time this afternoon and I’m drowning in Bucky feels and this says it perfectly.